The reason that brought me towards writing a blog or writing a web diary again was new n old developments in my life. Approx 2 years ago wen i got engaged i started thinking okay yes this is the end of my writing now there is sum1 who is loving me alot who is understanding me, with whom i can share everything and who will not misjudge or pre-judge me at all. soi stopped writing my diary. but just after the 3 months of wedding i realised that no its not it, i must write again. besdies if no one will hear u then a normal person will try to find of escapes to empty its frustrations and agonny.

anyhow, that was jus the small summary of cuming back. now lets start by saying that the depression before the marriage and depression after it are some wht same n somewht  bit different. previously wen i used to get upset, my paretns my siblings used to talk me out of it . but now doesnt matter to any1. perviously i used to crave for love care attention respect, n i still do that. n soo many other things.

I always used to say n beleive in one thing that, ” all ur pains ,agonnies n problems r ur OWN, but ur happiness never alone” so one shud never share the pains wid any1, coz no1 in this world can understand how u feel wen ur down n low. I used to think n assume that after marriage my partner will at least try to understand me, trust me , but unfortunatly its not like that. the table is turned the other way.